Chapter 4 – Extract 12 from The Paradise Induction!
No one had anticipated I would make such a drastic move, but what they didn’t comprehend was dark pain inside—a deep well of anger and sadness that had been growing for a very long time.
From ten years old, I held the dream of meeting the perfect woman at university, getting married, and having a family by the time I was twenty-seven.
The vow of leaving the country hadn’t sprung out of thin air. It had arrived at fifteen, when I reached a peak of sadness from being in a single-sex school that I detested. Seven years in an academic establishment with no girls was sickening.
University was the light at the end of the tunnel—I would meet my dream lady and all would be well. Such a simple dream.
I recall walking home from the last pub social of my final day at university, entering my bedroom, locking the door, and letting every bit of pain spill out of me in one, long, deep cry. I had no idea why I was crying at the time and it was so sudden, but a year later, I realised.