What made this a “massive, decisive act?”
The behaviour that was being dealt with by the course were actions that the world has permitted, that the world says are completely natural.
Not only has the world permitted it, but my own subconscious and conscious mind allowed this behaviour as well.
In other words, there was nothing internal or external instructing me this behaviour was wrong.
All I had was God’s Word saying it’s sin.
I therefore surrendered, not really knowing what I was doing to myself or agreeing with in God’s Word.
When I made the choice to surrender, I was going against the deepest part of my flesh; the survival instinct – the auto-responder that acts for self-preservation, self-indulgence, and is the core of selfishness.
Another component about this surrender is that I had to choose it.
It wasn’t something forced on me.
It was my choice to go through this particular nine-month course where I surrendered fully.
Subsequently, this opened the gate to more acts of surrender with a clear question in mind, accompanying every decision:
Do I trust the WORD of God?
Or, do I continue trusting my own way of life?
This my friends, was the opening to a WHOLE NEW WAY OF THINKING that I often call the ‘selfless brain.’
I couldn’t have known this universe of selflessness without surrender, without admitting fully that I was wrong about life, the world, and myself.
That selfless brain, dare I say it, is where real loving, sacrificial relationship lies. Not religiosity. Not a moral code. And not the law.
It’s where one learns that they would give their life for the one they love.
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