Day 197 – Difficulty in belief…
Having confidence in a good outcome founded on an invincible promise while the physical circumstances boldly reveal the opposite, is central to a sound mind and victory over excessively oppressive situations.
At 35 years old, it was all supposed to be complete.
A loving wife, three or four children, one adopted, a successful writing career, and financial freedom so that money anxiety wasn’t a hindrance.
I even moved countries, just to make sure it would all come together.
There was no way I would be the single guy at the prophesied ‘adult’ social dinner.
How did it go so wrong when I really tried to fulfil this?
I’d had the dream since I was 10 years old!
Why didn’t I succeed?
Was my request too much?
Raw Truth Thought Journal is about life’s challenging moments and the spontaneous perceptions that emerge in my mind.
Now that I’m in no man’s land with an expired life plan, God at the helm, and faith through Jesus as my daily guidance, might as well keep a record to see where this all goes…

Having confidence in a good outcome founded on an invincible promise while the physical circumstances boldly reveal the opposite, is central to a sound mind and victory over excessively oppressive situations.
People say time heals wounds, but if not healed with the utmost care, these wounds become scars that can be reopened again, and again…
For the past few weeks, grocery runs have been with the luxury of a bus chauffeur.
But, this came to an end today as I entered a full bus.
A sign of standard life returning a little prematurely perhaps…
“No man knows how bad he is till he has tried very hard to be good.” – CS Lewis
“I will bring together neighbours, restore the family unit, I will bring dinner back to the kitchen table. I will help people slow down their lives and appreciate what really matters. I will teach my children to rely on me and not the world. I will teach my children to trust me and not their money and material resources.” – CS Lewis
“Life with God is not immunity from difficulties, but peace in difficulties.” – CS Lewis
At its core, presumption in relationship or communication is created out of a learned survival motion. It grants us the illusion of protection, jumping way ahead so the hindsight lesson isn’t required if things do go wrong…
I do wonder whether this is actually a condition…
A nice message to see while in the queue for the supermarket today – straight out of Ephesians 4:32….Clearly a comedian in the queue had to chime in…
It’s quite possible to have never heard this word before.
Why?