13.4.2020.
Life is good.
I’m fully aware we’re in an epidemic, but I’m taking great enjoyment in sharing God with people as well as exercising, writing, and (I admit), playing computer games. đ đ đ
(18) âFear is the path to the dark sideâŠfear leads to angerâŠanger leads to hateâŠhate leads to suffering…â
2001 – 2002. Age Eighteen.
I hated school.
I hated life.
I hated this world.
And I hated the concept of the benevolent Judeo-Christian God.
God couldn’t be good if life and the world around was this terrible.
In fact, He most likely didn’t exist or had abandoned us.
All I sought now was my escape from the all-boys’ environment of Dulwich College and my dream: to meet my future wife at university, get my degree, start a writing career publishing Young Adult Fantasy novels, and living happily ever after with a family. Three to four children. And an adopted child too.
I didn’t care for the male-ego driven desire of meeting lots of different women at university.
I just sought the one.
I rejected many advances over these years, not even kissing a girl, because I wanted all manner of physical activity to be with my wife, and her alone…
Little did I know, this ‘moral code’ would not work out for me…
Message from Jesus – “-”
Message from the World – “You’re missing out on life. ”
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