17.4.2020.
Since this quarantine, I’ve taken it as a powerful opportunity to improve myself spiritually, mentally, and physically.
One of my prayers has been about my fiercely condemning mindset.
This is something I’ve possessed since I was a child.
What I always find so interesting about prayers of the soul’s improvement, is that God answers them immediately and with a trial. This is like clockwork. A science.
Pray for money and in my experience: Silence.
Pray to meet a good Godly woman for a relationship: Silence.
Pray for a successful career: Silence.
Pray for humility. BANG. A serious scenario comes up to humble you ‘nicely.’
Pray to forgive someone. BANG. The opportunity emerges to meet that exact person who you need to forgive, OR, you’re given a nasty scenario with which to grant forgiveness.
Pray to not be so condemning of others. BANG. You’re conversing with loads of people that irritate or anger you, challenging you to empathise instead of condemn…
God really is a funny funny funny guy…
(24) The dream dies…crushed, destroyed, smashed…irredeemable
2007 – 2008. Age Twenty-Four.
This was one of my more awkward years…
All my plans had come to nought.
I was lost and drifting, working in jobs just to make the rent.
The dream woman hadn’t arrived during university, but I rejected the Southampton single-man’s lifestyle of one-night stands and awkward mornings.
In a hidden place in my mind, bitterness and irritation grew at the unfairness that my life-long dream of meeting the one at university, had died.
It was also around this time that I met a pastor in my local steam room at the gym.
We’d meet up for lunch and discuss deeper topics.
I liked his ideas about following Jesus, but I couldn’t stand the idea of God.
***Of course at this time, I didn’t know that Jesus was and is God…
Message from Jesus – “Learn about me.”
Message from the World – “Keep going out and drinking. You’ve got to meet someone soon.”
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