2020 – Surrendering my Life…Reflecting on 35 Years


It’s 3.4.2020.

Queues are huge for supermarkets.

Regardless, I’m still thankful for life.


It seems from the Whatsapp groups I’m part of that people are getting wise to this Corona Virus.

By ‘wise’ I mean they’re beginning to realise that something is painfully wrong with this and I don’t mean the sheer amount of deaths.

I mean the source of this virus and its speculated diabolical purpose…


December 12, 1991 - Christmas Nativity Play. I played Joseph
December 12, 1991 – Christmas Nativity Play. I played Joseph

December 12, 1991 – Christmas Nativity Play. I played Joseph
December 25, 1991 – Christmas time in the France family home

(8) The Divorce


1991 – 1992. Age Eight.

My parents divorced.

This was another wound in my life in which I wouldn’t realise the monumental damage it did until Feb 2017.

It changed everything, but the world convinced me that it was for the best.

I innocently obeyed this worldly perception.

How else could I handle it, but choose to see the positive?

Sadly, this is where deception has worked its greatest performance in my life; by convincing me to look at the positive as opposed to deal with the pain and receive healing.

This was also the time that a new thought entered my mind.

I believed that if there was a God, either:

(1) He was evil,
(2) He had left this world, OR
(3) He never existed in the first place.


August 1992 - Holiday to Portugal
August 1992 – Holiday to Portugal
Me trying to impress the girl in the flowery dress with some ‘special’ dance moves

February 23, 1992 – Cycling at Battersea Park

Message from Jesus – “I’m always here and I’m mourning with you. I will heal you. Your parents love you. I love you.”

Message from the World – “No one can be trusted. Not even your parents. And God? God doesn’t care about you, and He’s certainly not powerful enough to change things in your life. Look what’s happened to your parents. Makes you wonder if He really exists, doesn’t it? The divorce is for the best though. Your parents won’t argue anymore. You will have a family of your own and it’s going to be perfect. You’ll have the perfect wife and perfect life.”


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