2020 – Surrendering my Life…Reflecting on 35 Years


16.4.2020.

I’ve heard a few predictions that this lock-down will end in three weeks.

Shaves off a lot of time from the original statements that expressed a potential three – six month period.

During a video conference with the HTB Alpha course I’m leading, an ice-breaker question was asked by the co-leader:

“What do you look forward to when lock-down ends?”

This might sound tragic, but my answer was, “long walks.”


First Year of University in the Uni Club called The Cube - Age 20
First Year of University in the Uni Club called The Cube – Age 20
July 2005 - Cruise ship vacation across Caribbean - Age 20
July 2005 – Cruise ship vacation across Caribbean – Age 20

(21) The great dream begins!


2004 – 2005. Age Twenty-One.

My first year of University brought several hard-hitting lessons.

Firstly, people weren’t what I thought.

Morality was so low.

I felt naive, as though I should have known this.

Principles were especially low in the area of ‘sexual-partner-count.’

Men and women racked up their ‘bedpost notches’ and some were ecstatic to share this.

Secondly, the year passed without me meeting the love of my life.

The dream I’d held for almost a decade was a third of the way through of NOT COMING TRUE.

At the end of the year, I was devastated.

I held hope as several people reassured me that Second Year Uni was even better than the first.

Thirdly, I detested Christianity and the foolish people who believed that God had gotten them into University.

I heckled the Christian Union, who would come by Halls of Residence to give us toast and coffee after our drunken nights. Not my finest hour, but certainly a time where I was clear on my worldview.

God didn’t exist.

If He did, He either hated me, or had abandoned this world.

I found the Christians’ reasoning of God to be the most repulsive, especially when they said “HE’d helped them with their exams…”


Message from Jesus – “I’m reaching out to you…

Message from the World – “You’ve got to start having more fun. Forget morality. Look at everyone else enjoying themselves…”


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