2020 – Surrendering my Life…Reflecting on 35 Years


Age 21 - Camden Town, London
Age 21 – Camden Town, London

(22) It’s not happening?


2005 – 2006. Age Twenty-Two.

The second year of university went by.

The dream wasn’t coming true. Nowhere near.

I tried to compromise.

I dated someone who I didn’t feel 100% right with.

I hated myself for this, because my moral code kept telling me, “you’re using this woman.”

I had to drink to numb the condemning voice.

The end of the year came and I broke it off with this lady.

Bitterness filled me.

What could I do?

Was finding the right woman so hard?

University represented a very specific lifetime moment that wasn’t happening…I’d waited 10 years for this!

What was I doing wrong?


Message from Jesus – “-

Message from the World – “Compromise. Have fun. Or else you’re going to regret it…”


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